Love and War

I only been so sick once before
Seems my boyfriend found a whore
I never been good at heart break
Only war
I guess I don’t have what take
To say no more

Pathetic? nah I just get it
26 years and they threw away the key
Then all his secrets was reveled to me
Do I let it?
Or forget it?
Cause nobody was here for me
Nobody stopped the pain of misery
Nobody cares I’m still trying to get free
Nobody knows cause they don’t see how I see
It’s hard to take the higher road
All I keep seeing is another one sould
And god I was never good at growing old
Just these stories left to be told

It seems she is 23
And prettier than me
Same story different bitch
But who respect a crime of passion
Not a valid reason to be left in a ditch
So i guess im gonna cash in
I fold
I never imagined a world so cold
Do I become a hitter cause I let her
Or do I just ask him if that pussy get wetter
Nah I know better
So I keep reading my grandmas letter
I ain’t gonna sweat her

My heart is broken even though I always knew that he lied
Thank god I’m a far cry away from suicide
I was in shock for hours before I finally cried
Wave and smile another part of me just died
But still i ride
I guess it’s all personal set to the side

I just wanna know why
Why pretend and tell a lie
Why a friend and say goodbye
Why do you love if it can bring pain
Why look above when the sky can bring rain
Why no respect once you go insane
Why I keep asking
Cause you will never know my name

Love and war
What’s left of good for
I was too scared to walk out the door
Now I’m just begging to hurt me no more