peripheralbeauty
madd professor
when you look at me closely what do you see?
can you read the very thoughts that make me feel i'm free?
when you look into my eyes what do you try to find?
do you realize that i build a wall for me to hide behind?
i'm lost in infinite abyss with my heart's love chiming a synth/ i can't keep my feelings hidden beneath this placid surface within/
deep seeded with a creed of a need to fill your eyes/ with the light that guides me every night back to you/
your sight alone is all that i ask of you/
the task that you set before me has my mask resetting glory/
one sad story tells for one breath seeked well beyond the calling/
calling calling screaming whispers baby i still can't find you/
i lied to you when i denied to you my love an now i can't stop from falling/
trying to be with you is my whole life story/
slowly pouring thoughts and why i can't be the only/
holding you close folding your broken heart/
mending your open scars from the lashes of lies/
too many for too long just stare into my eyes/
get lost in my thoughts of you forever and ever till we both die/
i don't deny the feelings, i can't hide from them forever /
i can't defy the way i feel for you, it takes me 2 da heavens /
like the 7 red roses u sent me 4rm ur heart i received /
and perceived the love felt strong between us, praying u neva leave /
but deceived was my heart when it told me i could b ur one and only /
4 the only thing i ended up with was this feeling that i'm lonely /
is it so bad to love you and not tell you and be shunned to be the outcast/
in past lives stunned with too much love from this hour glass/ pouring my minutes that i lived shadowed by both of your existence/
little does a scribbled lust resist the drizzle of your critical essence/
the love, the feeling, the envy in the one soul of yours, makes me wish i possessed this/
the social banisters that bind me have in turn began to confine me /
they blind me from the love i seek and yet i still cannot defy thee/
if it weren't 4 these chains holding me i would be free 2 love you/
its hard boo when i told u that i place no one above u/
i meant what i said when i told u u'd always own my heart/
its hard to accept this afta all said and done but i'm saying we must part/
its ok... its just another day in my life when nothing changed from the past/
a simple repeat of another hate when good days won't last/ don't look back at my pitiful self loathing in the mud and glass/
the sorrow of my hollow heart almost was filled but it wasn't, it was just another blast/
at my confidence but then again in remembrance i had a good time once/
it was when i was alone at my mother's grave/
love you forever bubz, but its this life you cannot save/
peace