To: Live by the Gun

Live by the Gun

I’m from a town where only the strong survive
As an outsider I did my best and managed to keep myself alive
Ill then ask the ones that drill us
And I’m not too sure that, that many feel us
E 125th… Manhattan bank… I remember my first ride there
Only im not sure who to thank or how I clipped a beat with just one stare
“seeing more Ds than a damn report card”
The taxis… you see in ct they are yellow
But in the city they look like ct dts and I was tripping while trying to appear mellow
I thought cops were EVERYWHERE
But ain’t no dreams to side
This not follow the leader
How you judging so hard when you never even met or seen her?
Its only a misdemeanor…

The only roaches I saw was over her crib
I put my gum over the hole and never judged how they lived
And the rest was all history year after year
Shit is weird
Ask me about her now and how or why I don’t know
Some things are always a burden when they just playing games they learned from the song “all over a hoe”
I wouldn’t push her but I wouldn’t save her neither
I guess when betrayal calls its just like you don’t know she don’t know and I don’t know either
It hurt for real and yeah I had to take a breather
The funny part… I swore I would never be one to pull it and almost did
For like years and years I’d walk around like yup would still be in doing my bid
Guns blast… the only time I ever shot was down and my ears rang for 73 minutes
And if feds was tracking anything on the site that description would’ve been it

MOBB which one you want? We all had our song
But now it seem like we all hardly even get along
Secrets did that… rumors and lies and a bunch of somethings that sounds true
Audio splices, spy cam recordings and spirits bitching too
I miss the days we’d smile and wave and crash 4th of July picnics for a better view
When I see pacs shit is when the only time some things start to make sense
It’s been years and I haven’t barely been up all night since (92)
Now?
My baby daddy still an asshole and it’s one bird I still can’t call
I can’t believe he let him even say or do that like he don’t have any sense!
But if I’m a flex I’m a wait and give it my all
After all, he let them teach me how to ball